why do we do this to ourselves?

So, my weekend was actually really nice! :) Only bummer is that my mom left and I feel like there was some unspoken issue between us. :/ It makes me sad, I didnt want anyone to leave me with any ill feelings whatsoever. BUT, I did enjoy my weekend. Saturday, I went to the beach! It was sooo nice. :) I made new friends: Kelli, John, Johnathen, Mark, Paul, David, and I cant remember the last guys name......lol. Well, they taught me how to play volleyball. Crazy, huh? I never thought I would put myself out of my comfort zone like that. I felt accomplished and supposedly I did good for my first time. I enjoyed it because everyone was soooo nice and super supportive. They never ever said anything to hint that I was doing horrible. Then, liz came saturday night! :D We had good fun and talks. She stayed untill sunday early evening. Me her and my roomie spent the day together. :) Well, that's all for now. OH! I stayed up till 2:20 last night. Ugh. Idk why. I was just really not tired. PLUS, I didnt even do ANY homework. Horrible I know. Instead I webcamed with cameron. lol. haha. We finally decided to go to sleep because I had class today at 8 and needed to get up early to study and do hw, and he needed to get up at 5. Why did we do that? ahaha. And my roomie stayed up a little later than me! I think its just a college thing. We seriously do not mean to stay up that late. Happy Birthday Danny and Kristina! :)

first week of school

So, I haven't had much time to blog lately. BUT, I will now update you with the happenings of my week starting from sunday.

Sunday: We left our hotel and went to LSU to unload and move me in. I was slightly flustered just because it seemed like there was soooo much to do. But, I moved in and found out that people were leaving in 15 minutes. AH! So soon. It made me slightly panicky. I wasn't ready to say goodby to tristan. :/ But we had to. So I said goodbye to everyone and went back to my dorm room. No tears.

Monday: FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL! haha. It was early start! 8 am Jesus class. The day was crazy. I fell asleep in my second class, then came back to my room to take a nap and slept 20 minutes into my next class. I was soooo mad at myself.

Tuesday: Went to classes. I really like my war crimes and international policy class. It reminds me of my favorite class back at my old college. THEN, that night me and my roomie alejandra went to tuesday tunes. Its an activity at school where bands/people come and perform. Mmmm. It was sooo fun. I highly recomend you check out noah gundersen. He is amazing. Amazingly good looking. :P Oh! and I made a friend. Garrett. He's a pretty awesome guy. He's the one who puts on tuesday tunes and he's a senior. Pretty nice too. So, after tuesday tunes, me and ale hanged out with matt and jr. Fun. :)

Wednesday: Ugh. Another day of school....Im already counting down the days till christmas break. lol. Tonight, I went to worship. It's called 4th down. It was pretty awesome. And, afterwards, me and some new found friends went out. haha. At like midnight. We got some horchata. Nasty horchata actually. But just getting away from the college was super nice. Im starting to feel like I fit in just a little bit more. BUT, I missing tristan. :/ So many little things remind me of him......

Thursday: School.......First quiz. :/ AND, convocation. I got to see all of the LSU students get together. Super awesome. After my last class was over ale called me and said that her and josh were going to fruyus (a frozen yogurt place) and they invited me to go. :) It was soooo yummy. And definitly was my lunch. :D After that, it was luau time! Welcome back luau. At first it was boring, but then more friends started showing up. There was blow up games, polynesian dancing, food, and music. I signed up to be in the polynesian club! :) Im soooo excited. Later that night, all my friends randomly went on the obstical course that was all wet with a pool at the end. Soooooo awesomly fun. And me and ale even got garrett to go! haha. He's hilarious. And, he's going to cook me and ale dinner sometime! He lives off campus. Unfortunately, back at the room I started missing tristan a TON. Aghhh. I know for a fact I can do this whole long distance thing, but i dont enjoy it at all. :/

Friday: Today was my last day of classes this week! Im done with my first week of school now! :) Well, I will be cleaning, doing laundry, and organizing things today. Later on, me and my friends might go to some block party or something. Not really sure. But supposedly kid cudi will be there. So that should be interesting. :)

Overused phrase of the week: ridiculous

this amazes me. completely.

noah gundersen

La Sierra

Wow. Im finally here. Its insane thinking about it. I dont really think that it has hit me yet. But I have a feeling it will after this week. Well, let me start from the beggining. My trip down was very interesting. We almost died. But, everything turned out perfectly fine. My roomate is super nice. :) Her name is Alejandra, Ale for short. I think that if I hangout with her a lot Ill loose my meannes. haha. My room is bigger than I thought it would be and I only have to share the bathroom with my roomie and bathmates (the girls nextdoor). So, being without tristan hasnt hit me too hard yet. BUT, in class this morning, the teacher made a comment like, "all of us have had to do a lot to get here with money, and leaving loved ones behind". Ahhhhh. That one got me. Right in the middle of Jesus class. At 8 in the morning. lol. But besides that, Ihavent gotten homesick. I can't wait till people visit me though! It'll be great. :)

this is our destiny. :)

Last night, I watched Australia and Slumdog Millionaire. :) I LOVE those movies. && Tristan came over. :) Perfect evening. I like that guy a million. I still can't believe im leaving this friday! Its insane. Im really excited, but dont want to say goodbye to people. I hate saying goodbye. Anyways, here are some of my favorite quotes from the movies.

Australia:
Drover: We're not really used to...
Lady Sarah Ashley: A woman? I suppose you think I should be back in Darwin, at the church fete or a lady's whatever you call it. Well I will have you know, I am as capable as any man.
Drover: Guests. We're not used to guests is what I was about to say but now that you mention it I happen to quite like the women of the outback.

Nullah: Mrs. Boss! We gotta get those fat cheeky bulls into that big bloody metal ship!

Drover: Welcome to Australia!

Nullah: I sing you to me.

Slumdog Millionaire:
Jamal Malik: I knew you'd be watching.
Latika: I thought we would meet only in death.
Jamal Malik: This is our destiny.
Latika: Kiss me.

Maman: Jamal, time has come to turn professional.
Youngest Jamal: Really?
Maman: But first, let me hear that song Darshan Do Ghanshyam, my favorite bhajan.
Youngest Jamal: [sings] Darshan Do [stops and commands]
Youngest Jamal: Fifty rupees!
Maman: [bewildered]
Youngest Jamal: I'm a professional now, what to do?
Maman: [laughs] Cheeky little bugger!

Jamal Malik: I love you.
Latika: So what?

Jamal Malik: I'll wait for you at the train station every day at five.

Jamal Malik: Maybe it's written.
All of these quotes were provided by IMDB.

50th post. Hoooray!

Ahahahha. I dont know if I should be proud that its only my 50th post. But, I am. :) Well, this weekend it has been only me and papi at home. My mama and sister went to a leadership conference with my church. I can't believe that it was my last weekend home! Insane. Well, friday I spent mostly home doind chores and scholarships. But, I did go over to kara's to visit for a bit. She gave me a massage. :) She's in massage therapy school. I very much enjoyed it. I think that has to be some of the coolest homework ever. Later, me and my dad went out to dinner at rubios. Mmmmm. Delicious. I got nachos grande. Then I went home and chilled. Saturday, me and my dad only went to the sermon at church, we didnt make it to sabbath school. After church, I was talking to Eli for a while. I had NOOOOO clue he knew I had a boyfriend! Oh my goodness. Slightly awkward. But, he is completely hilarious so we were joking around like crazy. He told me to bring tristan to church. Idk.....It's kinda weird having a boyfriend from a different religion, just becuase he wont understand a lot of the reasoning behind why I do what I do. Hard to explain. Anyways, after that I went home and watched a movie with my dad. That night, me and my friends went out bowling! Finally! lol. We've been trying to do that for months! hahaha. It was me, kara, her boyfriend christopher, tiana, her boyfriend canyon, and canyon's coworker patrick. I had fun. :) I just wished tristan couldve been there. Oh well. But that night, I heard news about a friend that I didnt like. Im not going to name names, but she has really changed. :( Im worried for her. && The stuff she does makes me want to be mad at her and call her names, but I just think that there's something wrong with her. She spread some really bad stuff about my other good friend to loads of people. Anyways, on a happier note, me and joanna (alisa's mom), are going to go see her at her boarding school! Im sooooooo happy! I thought I wouldnt be able to see alisa before I leave. THIS FRIDAY!

Awarded

I got this award from my sister. :) And along with this award, Im supposed to list ten interesting things about myself: 1. I really like eyelashes. :) But, only when they're real. no fake ones.

2. When I was little and I wanted to talk to someone, I would get SUPER close to their face. :D

3. I SUPER completely like my boyfriend. Even though he's a dork.

4. I like my cat Alice probably more then some of my friends. Sorry, but its true.

5. My feet shrunk about two sizes. From a 8 1/2-9, to a 7-7 1/2. Creepy, huh?

6. My sister is AWESOME. We are the elizabeth and jane bennett's of the world.

7. I have super bad luck with cameras. I went through two in the past two years. Both were digital and cost 200-300. No bueno. BUT, I have never been the fault of them braking.

8. I've had the two same bestfriends since childhood. One, I met the day she was born. Okay, I was only 1 then so I dont remember meeting her. The other, I met in first grade.
9. I love aguing, and it gets me into trouble a lot.

10. I've had tonsillitus twice since june, and have thrown up 16 time once in a day. random. :)

I award whoever reads this.

Second award, again from my sister. I am supposed to say ten things noone else knows. Im not sure how that is going to work out. My sister will probably know most of these:

1. When I was little, my favorite animals were sharks and dinosaurs. Plus, tigers. :) I even had a shark shirt. It was the ultimate.

2. Sometimes I feel like my cat is the only one who likes and understands me.

3. I cry more often then I let on.

4. I never wanted to have kids untill I went to a mission trip to an orphanage in mexico. It changed everything. Well, almost. I now want one boy. :)

5. I used to think I was adopted when I was little. I still struggle to see the similarities between me and my family/relatives.

6. My greatest fear is failure.

7. I am ALWAYS tempted to pack one bag and just travel wherever my feet take me.

8. I am worried that I won't achieve all of my goals, or that I wont make a difference.

9. I wish I knew my grandfathers.

10. I really want to go to cuba. I always felt like I was missing something, and I think that something is the connection to my cuban heritage. (I also think maybe that's the missing link to who I look like).

I award whoever reads this.

Well, I hope you enjoyed learning just a little bit more about me and my crazy self. :)

kidnapped! :)

Well, lets see.....the last time I wrote anything was about the beach. Wow. That seems so long ago. Anyways, Thursday I went to the state fair and had a lovely time. Mmmm. We had chocolate candies and shaved ice. Classic. Then, on friday, well, I cant remember what I did friday so that must mean it wasnt too interessting. Saturday was a usual church day, then my family went to my hayward hispanic half's babyshower party. My cousin is having another little guy. :) He's supposed to be born September 18th. The day I leave for college. Which is supprisingly in 10 days. Crazy, huh? Anyways, the babyshower was okay. And I got to take pictures with family which was nice. :) Sunday I went out to breakfast for my friends birthday. :D She turned 19! Then Cameron Arana the pirana came over. lol. I havent seen him in ages. Well, more like a week. haha. Anyways, after.....my mom supprised me and my family took me on a trip! They kidnapped me! lol. She wouldn't say where we were going. Turns out we were going on a beach one night trip. And me and my sister stayed at a hostel with a lighthouse. Super cool. Unfortunately, I was really out of it for some reason. :/ Then on monday driving home, we stopped off at ikea and bought a ton of dorm room stuff. I am now super excited to go. Im ready. Definitly ready. I'll just miss tristan a ton, but ill survive. Speaking of that boy.....Its one month for us today. Hahaha. I feel silly being all excited about that, but I am. :) But, I havent seen the dork in a while. :/ Last night, Lizzie spent the night and we stayed up watching tv/movies, eating ice cream and popcorn, and talking till 3. :) Super nice. Well, off to a good day today. Hopefully. :)

Liz+Boys+Tristan=Good beach day. :)

Yesterday, I went to the beach with liz and her family, her younger brother's friends, and tristan. :) It was fun! But, unfortunatly, it wasn't very warm. Though it made for good cuddling wrapped up in a blanket with tristan. :) I LOVE the beach. I wish i could live on one & just listen to the waves all day. Soooo relaxing. Anyways, today I am going to the state fair with the family. Hooray. Oh! And counting days, I have 15 till I move to university! Im getting super excited. :D