frustrated

wow, so i havent blogged in a bit! here's a quick update:

• I am now in my fifth week and midpoint of the quarter. (I want it to be over)
• My sister, boyfriend, and friend came to visit me.
• My boyfriend completely suprised me.
• I went roller skating, saw Whip It, and now want to roller derby-it up.
• I gave my boyfriend something that means the world to me. (my bracelet I havent taken off for a year and a half)
• Midterms coming up.
• The weather is getting colder.
• I enjoy tuesday tunes but Garrett's head is in the clouds due to a certain volleyball player.

Okay, so now for my frustration! haha. People here are starting to make me mad. Ugh. I guess people have been talking about me behind my back. Who knew?! I thought they were my friends! Anyways, I guess they think im a big flirt? Idk. I dont think I am at all. Its just that once im comfortable around you, Im comfortable. I dont treat them any differently then my guy friends back home, and everything I do I'd do infront of tristan. They just think way too much of the little things. For an example, I am freezing cold, I ask if anyone will let me use their jacket. Logical right? But noooooo, it means Im flirting and i like them. Stupid. Im just kinda super fed up right now with the whole situation. It feels like its middle school again. And it hurts to know that people are talking about me behind my back. Grow the balls to say it to my face! Oh, and my supposed "friends" keep telling my roomate stuff to tell me. Seriously? Just have enough respect to say it to my face. Idk. Im really frustrated at the moment. I never ever meant for people to get the wrong ideas from my actions. My roomie thinks they just dont understand me or my humor and they're thinking more of it then they should. So I guess now every time I talk to a guy, which is all the time because the girls dont talk to me, people are saying "oooh. Look. she's flirting with a new guy". Ugh. Just because it's soooooo freakin dificult to make girl friends here doesnt mean peopel should judge me when i mostly have just guy friends. They're more friendlier and less complicated. Usually. AND, to top everything off, I found out why one of my favorite guy friends has been basically completely avoiding me. He's into me. agghhhh. Don't avoid me because of that. So, sorry to blurt out all of my frustration here but I cant really say it anywheres else. :/

p.s. angelina don't show mom this please. :D

HMA tuesday adventures

Last night, according to Israel, it was tuesday adventures (he claims that every tuesday we are going to go on an adventure together). Anyways, it started off that he wanted to talk to me about something. So, we went on a walk and sat down outside. Then, we decided to go off on an adventure. Well, we ended up going to HMA, the music building, into their big auditorium. It was super dark so we just layed out on the stage and talked. But then, they started locking up the building so we had to run out. haha. It wasn't that adventurous, but it was still fun. :)

Weekend

So, this weekend was a usual one. Friday Fruyus, then first service. After, that I went to sleep basically right away. Well, after talking to people right after first service. My roomie stayed up to celebrate John's birthday! He turned 19 on friday. Then, on saturday I went to sabbath school and church. After that, I napped. :) Later, me and a bunch of friends layed out on a blanket as usual and talked and ate. Mmmm. That night liz came and a group of us went to the beach for a bit. It was an interesting experience.....I made a decision that I now regret in a way. I did something I shouldnt have and im not proud of it. But, I dealt with my bad decision already and im trying to put it behind me. Im just really disappointed in myself. Idk. I regret it and I dont at the same time. Anyways, on sunday, I basically slept all day and played piano. lol. Oh, on the beach, my awesome amazing friend Josh played a song for me. Check it out:

boys dorm

So, yesterday was boring, but last night we went over to Garretts house for dinner. :) It was fun. Isreal took us (me and ale) over there and back. I LOVE his house. Its sooo nice. And the decor is amazing. Im proud of him and the guys he lives with. Oh, and he can cook. Then, we came back to the dorms and studied for an hour or two. After that, me and ale headed over to the boys dorm as usual. We chilled on the couches with josh, budge, and isreal. :) Mucho fun. Isreal supposedly thinks im quiet. Surrreee.......haha. He's a funny kid. Oh, and he insisted on walking us back to our dorm rooms. According to him its just too dangerous. Boy you've never been to my town at night? haha. Anyways, Today should be fun. Its two months with me and tristan today. :) BUT, i havent heard from him since sunday. :/ it makes me sad. Ive even texted him. Ugh. Oh well. Tonight im going midnight bowling. Maybe I can get Isreal to drive me. Hopefully. Or josh. :)

top of the world

Tonight, after tuesday tunes, my new found amigo, Isreal took me and some friends to the top of the world. :) It was super fun and random. He's a pretty amazingly cool guy. ahaha. Anyways, tomorrow will be another day of school and that night will be tuesday tunes club meeting at Garrett's house (thanks to me and ale) he's cooking us dinner. :D

if you can walk, you can dance. if you can walk to the music, you can become a great dancer

This weekend has been funnish. Friday, I mostly just cleaned and went shopping after school. Joshy, my tenth husband :), took me and ale. Friday night I went to first service. It was nice. A lot better than church. Saturday I went to sabbath school. Then, I chilled outside on a blanket with ale, nate, and josh. We all ended up falling asleep. It was a SUPER nice and needed nap. Then, me and ale got ready for that night. We wanted to look super cute. After we were done we left with pono, josh, and nate along with a car full of other boys I dont remember their names to an open mike cafe. Pono performed. It was a lot of fun but I was exausted and super cold. Then, later that night we all chilled at angwin, my dorm. Sunday, we decorated our dorm room for a contest (we won first place with a prize of $20 target giftcards!), had a photoshoot with JR, and studied. Well, not really studied.....we ended up going to the boys dorm to study,we find ourselves there often. Pono was going to help us with bible, but.....we ended up going out to eat with pono, josh, and steve. Haha. Then, when we got back, steve wanted to teach Israel how to dance salsa. So, a group of us (me, ale, steve, israel, andrew, and sometimes josh) all danced untill 1 in the morning! Soooooo much fun! I hadn't danced in a long time. We also merengued, salsa'd, tangoed, slow waltzd, and cha-cha'd. Super exciting. :) We are going to start doing that regularly.